I am intimidated by the personal statement that I must write for my graduate school application. For some reason every time that I sit to write, I seem to forget who I am and why I want to go grad school. My mind draws a blank and I no longer know what the answers to the questions are. It is so annoying because as soon as I walk away and begin doing something else, the answer pops up. I know exactly why I want to attend and what it is that drew me to the program. Excited at regaining my answers, I would rush back to jot them down and again they would disappear and the rush of anxiety returns.
What am I to do?
I would really like to get this essay and the application over with so that I can move on to more important worries: Will I be accepted? What should I do if I’m not accepted? I’ve decided that if I’m not accepted I should take time off to recuperate from the rejection and go to Trinidad for the 2014 Carnival and dance my pain away. It’s a great plan. After that, I will move to New York to work and reapply for the grad school.
I wish my thoughts would take pity on me and flow the way I want them to. I hope my anxiety will give up on torturing me and fade away.
Here’s an article that I found helpful on Publishing Trends.
I am now at a time in my life where I’m trying to figure out which way to go. Should I drop everything and run off to grad school to get a master’s degree? I really want one. Or should I stay at my job and continue to work to strengthen my skills and broaden my knowledge of the publishing industry?
It’s hard to study and work at the same time, especially when all the great classes are usually during my work hours (I find that very annoying). But this gave me a bit of clarity. Really, at this time it doesn’t make sense to quit my job to enroll full-time. As stated in the article, I might be unable to get a job when I’m done, which is something I’ve observed amongst my friends and acquaintances.
“An MBA helps open doors up, and is often preferred, but it’s not an automatic ‘in’ anymore,” said Steven Sandonato, vice president for strategy and business development at Time Home Entertainment Inc.
From the article I’ve garnered that I need to question my “motivation” for going back to school. According to those interviewed, if it’s simply to receive a higher salary, then it’s pointless; but if it’s to gain a better understanding of certain aspects of the industry, or to totally change my career path, then sure, it’s a good idea.